can't control

can't control the ones i love
those with whom i share my blood
not perfect, but mine
given to them from above

can't control my soul mate's plan
but able to spark, and smile, and share
know when to yield, when to refrain
and know who's worth even going there

can't control the health i curse
but i can count my blessings and live
knowing others fight their own demons,
and I've got plenty to give

can't control my rephrensible thoughts
those my heart knows offend
but my actions and words need not match up
every stranger a friend

can't or won't
only control what we can,
whether we turn the other way
or offer to lend a hand

because,
what it comes down to
is there's only one thing we can control
what we do, the decisions we make
and impressions, above all

another ending/ another beginning

another ending/ another beginning
smoother than the last
sitting on the porch
bay breeze just in my grasp

the last ending was not sought
but it was right on time
this one anticipated, welcomed
with a new beginning - all mine

the themes from the last
needy, unwise, naive
are no more, they're buried
just a prologue to what you'll read

i went on a walk today

i went on a walk today
with an old, new friend
i confessed my darkest secrets
trying to make amends

with my past, for my future
feeling the need to be judged
seen as so perfect,
the truth needn't be nudged

to remind myself, i'm human
not perfect, not a saint
just a small town southern girl
grown, evolved, but ever so quaint

the black crows have flown away

the black crows have flown away
hibernated to the north to stay
the sunlight twinkles off the shore
glistening in my soul forevermore

skimming the surface

skimming the surface
bubbles overflowing
diving to the deepest possible depths
dryer than the dessert

reflection in the moonlight
blinded by the sunlight
blowing in the wind
stagnant in the chill

isolated at the zenith
crowded in the hollows
bound to my reflection
torn from my enemy

in a single word
it's everything and nothing
all at the same time

when the sun goes down

when the sun goes down
and the lights go off
and it's just me and my thoughts
they turn to you
in a devious kind of way
playful innocent
sinful
what i desire and yearn for
in thought only
if it were to happen
outside my fantasies, into reality
i'd only feel guilty
for the intense pleasure
i'm certain to feel
and the insanity of
the release you're sure to
make me have

=)

"Chew your meat for you/
Pass it back and forth/
In a flatulent kiss/
From my mouth to yours/
Sloppy lips to lips/
You're my vitamins
I like you."
-KC

=)

so many fake people

so many fake people
in their costumes
and masks and facades
wanting to be seen
not as they are
but as they want to be

i find it sad really
so discontent
and insecure and camoflauged
the shallow attempts
to gain acceptance
for a kiss or a smile

i am confidence
and self and radiant purity
never callous never fake
always caring and true
and never, ever willing
to hide