You make me sick

You make me sick,

disgusted, naseous, heavy like a brick

Yet I can't say goodbye,

I want to, I can't, I need to get high

I'm cringing as I write this

Livid and mad

Furious, on fire

Not even sad

I hate you so much

Your lies, your flaws, your face, your touch

You're nothing, your wrong

Not the one, not right, a horrible song

I want to destroy you,

bring you down hard,

Tortured and red

Beaten and scarred

When goodnight ain't the end

When goodnight ain't the end/

and I'm with him again/

I lose my place, I lose what I've become

To give in, to the past/

And I see "us" so fast/

What we were, what I wanted all along

As he kisses my face/

And a passionate embrace/

Feeling safe, feeling warm, we are one

But, then, I wake up/ 

And it all ain't enough/

Hard goodbye, and I'm drowning once again

So pass the cup, fill it high/

Let me down it til I'm numb/

With time, I knew this would come

Hot bliss, a mistake/ 

And its hurts now like it did/

When I made it the past, not for good

Merry go round, best for now/ 

Tears of joy, tears of pain/

Bring the rain

Cleanse me off, make me wise/

Give me strength, break all ties/

He is gone, no more time

A dream, nothing more/

That's the end, just for now/

I am fine.